lolita said:
Awww... *Hugs* I think you should remain persistant. I'm sure she still loves you and wants to be with you but her father is quite an issue now isn't he? She's almost 20 and her father is still controlling her like she's 10... If I were her, I would get away from that man asap. He sounds very controlling, to a scary point, imo. Is there any reason why she doesn't stand up to him? I mean she's an adult and she can do what she wants with her life. |
She's always respected him more than anything in this world. He was a Sergeant Major in the military until last year when he retired. He's a hero, especially in her eyes.
She was always his little girl, and he still sees her as that.
Besides the reason above, there is another problem. She suffers from terrible migraines. It all started about 10 months ago (the migrain attacks). Ever since then her family, and I, have been there trying to help and support her the best we can. Of course all my actions are rather in the shadow as she isn't allowed to tell her family which "friend" is helping her so much. So the problem is that her family pays for all of the medication she needs to take. And she still hasn't found a proper solution, so it's a bit of a mess. I told her that together we would make things okay and I promised to find a way to stop her migraines from being such a problem, but I'm currently in no position to take her away.
I am graduating in 3 months and in 3 months, my internship will turn into a job, so at that time I'll be able to make a stand against her parents. But for now I can't do anything. And she's so upset at me I'm afraid she's going to leave me and call it quits any moment.
Right now I'm just silently standing by waiting and hoping that she comes back to me and we work it out together. In the meantime I'm doing everything I can to better myself and be the positive support, both mentally and physically, that she needs. And to show her I finally understand her love and that I also give her the greatest love and commitment back.
I can slowly feel my strength returning. Slowly. And the only reasno for that is the tiny hope and belief I have inside myself that she still loves and needs me, and that she'll come back to me. It's slowly working to make me better, but I still feel like I could collapse at any moment. That being said, I am doing a lot better right now than I have been any day in the past month. I'm going to be strong. For her. For us.
EDIT: And thank you for your kind words, rainbird. You two are really helping me feel stronger already, boosting my belief in her love and devotion for me. Thank you so much.
