The light at the end of the tunnel is a fucking train. Whatever you do, don't go towards the light.
You have my sympathies, I've been feeling really depressed the last few weeks. Shits been going on and I was *this close* to drowning myself in sleeping pills. It felt like my life was over.
But things get better man, and you always have to hold on. Who do you have close to you who can be there for you? Someone to talk to. You don't have to know why you're depressed, just being able to let your feelings out to someone and know that they care and love you and are there for you is enough.
There are many different views you can give life. Even in an identical situation, two people can have completely different emotions and feelings about what's going on. You need to find a way to find the happiness and joy in what you have, and pursue it with all your strength. I know how impossibly hard it is to change your view like that, but you have to try.
Also, go out. Get out there and do something. Go drive somewhere. Go out to eat. Go to the park. Get outside of your house. At least go outside and run/walk for about half an hour or an hour. Staying couped up inside was one of the worst things I did.
Whatever it is, you'll make it man. There is always a brighter future no matter how dark it seems now. Take it from someone who was literally seconds away from killing himself only a week ago.
Now go outside, or go somewhere. Do not stay at home. Your brain needs new sights and activities. It needs a way to release your stress.
