I'm drunk so how are you?

[MaxwellGT2000]

I've been off and on sobbing tonight... I've been angry at her boss for informing me of what happened and not acting like he has a heart... he was my old boss and I know he isn't the most emotional guy... but I feel so alone hurting for her... even she doesn't want to talk... and I don't know what to do cause when I was in that spot I didn't want to talk to even my own mom...

I wanted to talk to my friend Rico.... not my mom... not the girl I had a thing for at the time...

But I feel so much for her... cause I've been there... and I want to be the first she talks to... and I know shes talked to her old friends (like my friend Rico) and I'm the new guy in her life... even though I want to be first... and I'm rambling cause I'm drunk... but I'm just burying my own sadness... but I hope when shes ready she'll talk to me... right now I'm drinking and trying to make myself get everything out...