I've been through a lot of shit buddy. I know how it feels. Just sit down and have a think about it.
People here are offering you the chance to talk to them. Which is wonderful, shows just how empathetic humans can be. Although I'm sure they could comfort you, some professional help could be the answer:
http://www.samaritans.org/
You can talk to these people, about anything at all and they won't judge you.
They can give you some support. You're not alone in this.








