Hey Star. While I was one of the later people to get to know you, I feel like we did get to become at least more than casual acquaintances. I mainly remembered you from your Star at the Bar threads, and I enjoyed those threads a lot actually, as it allowed me to get a greater sense of community here. You see, that was during a time when I was becoming more active on this site, but before I had created a Discord account, so I had almost no interactions in a group-like chat like that where we could just talk about casual subjects. In fact I remember that I enjoyed them so much that you ended up becoming my favourite mod while you were on the time. I don't think that was a very common choice, but I really appreciated those threads.
Of course, as we all know by now, you left the mod team. And unfortunately, it was not an amicable split. Now, being the curious fellow that I am, I couldn't resist asking you what had happened. And I feel that's when we grew a bit closer to each other. We still talked and PMed each other, despite the PM system being dog shit on this site, and I felt like that's when we got to know each other a bit better.
However, I could definitely tell that something was bothering you, and I had also assumed it was related to your personal life. Unfortunately, it seemed like you were either too embarrassed/nervous to admit it, or were in denial about the situation. I am glad that you were able to do some self-evaluation and see the root of the problem, because I did feel like it was a hopeless situation, and after many other people also telling me that it was not possible to get you to change, I was finally starting to believe the same, and was about ready to give up. That's why I'm so glad that you've managed to do so.
Now, I'd say it is time for you to take a much needed break. Hopefully you'll come back a much happier person. I also hope that you will consider trying to make amends with the people here that you may have had difficulties with over the past few months, including the mod team. I know that it's not a unilateral effort, it does require willingness from both sides, but I feel if you can do that, you'll have a much more pleasant time here.