Backstory :

- Be 14

- Discover a nice RP forum

- Have fun on it, start becoming closer to members+

- They all knew each other for a while

- Befriend them, talk to them dayly on some instant messenger

- One of them proves suicidal

- One night starts talking about ending its life

- None of his friend online

- Ends up helping him

- We start becoming closer

- He keeps sending me gifts because "He wouldn't be there without me". Like super expensive gifts for a 14 years old.

- Ends up aking me out

- Can't tell him to fuck off, he was too nice to me.

- Date him 3 months until he proves to be an asshole. 

- Was really depressed at the time.

- His ex-girlfriend helped me a lot to break up with him, find confidence again when he made me feel like shit etc

- His ex kept helping me a lot while he stalked me for 1 year and a half after we broke up. Something like 3 text on my phone a day a year after we broke up

- After he lost interest in me I heard he found another victim

- I end up befriending her

- Help her get away from him, we become friend.

- From there on I understood I could be some help to people in her case

The same situation happened another few times, and every time i ended up making new friends while feeling useful.

Be 17. Thinking about starting a new RP forum, find a nice one. It feels weird though because people are younger than me, except for one 16 years old asshole. He's also dating a girl I talked a lot to on this forum.

I end up befriending the girl, we have a lot in common, read the sa me books, watch same movies etc She turns out to be pretty clever. Her asshole boyfriend is an ass to her, she discusses the matter a lot with me.

They ended up breaking up, i started to get closer to her. Except she turned out to be 12. Now, I know i sound like a manchild basement dweller saying I had a lot in common with her (Let's call her Loli), but she was actually pretty clever. She turns out to be too knowledgeable about sex and stuff, she's also pretty conscious of the attention she gets from guys. I ended up thinking i could not leave her alone, as she was a pretty easy target for any dishonest pedo out there.

Now at the same time I met Loli, which was too deep in the 2D world to get out of it, I met some boy my age in the 3D world. Let's call him shithead.

Shithead and I have night classes togheter, but most of the time he just plays his DS. He turns out to be an unlitterate narutard but I like him anyway, for some reason he's the nicest guy in the world. But it seems he can't socialize. I want to get him and loli interested in the 3D world, so I come up with a plan.

I introduce him to both my 2D world (the RP forum with loli) and my 3D world (hanging out with friends deinking wheap beers and doing this kind of shit every teenager does). It ends up being a success, as shithead starts socializing and loli starts being jealous of our "exciting" 3D life.

Except i'm getting even closer to Loli, and i start understanding she's in love with me. Which would not be a problem if i wasn't in love with here too.

After that i kept staying around Loli, but I knew i had to make a decision, wether to date her or not. She was nice and we had a lot in common, but I didn't want to go full pedo. I started thinking about this moral problem, i mean, i always had been a terrible human being, and would end up being a neet anyway, but what about her ?

I ended up being a moralfag and no going out with her. 2 months later, she started dating shithead to piss me off.

It's been 5 years now and she's still dating shithead, she dropped out school and she was pretty much depressed for 5 years.

Now I'm 22, I have a girlfriend i have been with for 3 years. She's asleep right next to me at the moment. I love her, but lately i've been thinking about the past a lot and i thought about alternate timelines, ended wondering :

What if i chose to date Loli ?

Nope.. Nope.. Nope.. You would probably had fathered a child wiith her on age 14.. Don't be a fool, you did the right thing.. You're happy now and she's miserable? You're probably think you could have helped her? Guess what.. We'll never know. It didn't and you moved one.. People change in 5 years especially at your age.. Its never gonna be the same, that thing you two had is over.. Forget about it, enjoy life.. If i could undo all the "dumb" things i did when i was young i would'nt be the man that i'm today

^ This times a thousand OP

That's kind of untrue as I'm a 22 yo NEET who dropped out college.

Though we did both change, we are still pretty close. The longest i haven't spoke to her was 3 months.

We all do wrong choices, and she has a lot of attenuating circumstances. Though you're right I shouldn't feel responsible of her (un)hapinness

So wait.. You're not happy how life is right now? And you hope things would be better if you were with her? Then its a definitely NO.. Sort things out in your own life before you drag her with you into misery..

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Dragging her into my own misery or corrupting her in any way was never an option though, i was just stating that my own happiness was not the point.

You did the right thing, you could have set yourself up with all kinds of serious trouble. Don't bring yourself down by thinking you are somehow responsible for this girl being miserable for 5 years, her issues probably runs much farther and deeper. Remember your mistakes from the past but unless you have a good reason, never look back.