I thinking  i go and see picture or do some work.

Gotta love it how people so easily put the blame on shit they do/forgot to do on everyone but themselves. It's especially infuriating when those people are of your own family.

Sadly, that's one of the few things in life you can't chose.

Sorry for the double post, but can't edit a video into my previous post.

I love how much I see myself on this song. Heck, most of NiN's songs mirror the state of soul i'm living in the past years. 

Looks to me that you're going through depression.

Oh sorry to hear that. Are you on any medications?

You can ignore me by the way I wouldn't mind. I'm just curious since I'm a med student.

Well, it is. After our breakup (and boy, what a tragic turn her life took), my ex became incredibly depressed.  She's on medication now and doing better than she has in months.  Depression is a sickness and there are ways to treat it.

What Lewis said. Drugs can help a lot with depression. A lot of the time depression is caused by hormonal or neurotransmitter imbalances. Anyway, a doctor would know better than me. What were the recommendations of doctors you visited?

Sorry, didn't see this reply before. This thread acts kinda weird on my Buddy (goes from -8 to 0 randomly). 

Sometimes having the things that you worked for is as unfullfilling as not having them at all. Each of us has a different perspective of the things we've achieved and the value that they give to our sense of fullfilment as a human being. Missing out on that is probably one of the worst sensations a person can experience in his/her life.

I really hate when some people go (what are you complaining about, you've got everything!) because how dare them to cast judgment over anyone else not knowing what that person actually needs to feel happy/satisfied.

Sadly, I can't answer neither of your two questions, as I'm searching for those answers myself. All I can say is that, what has gotten me through these past 26 months of my life feeling like that is the thought that somehow, someday, things will be different, because I believe that eventually the universe balances itself out. For all the shit I've felt in my life, there has to be a moment when at least I'll be able to glimpse a different feeling.

So I bought tickets to a hockey game and was going to ask that girl out that I work with. Was nervous as all heck, etc. etc., and before I got the chance to ask, she asked me if I wanted to head over to her place to watch a movie! It went great, we are already going to go on a date tonight, and she was surprised when I said I was already going to ask her out :)

That honestly sucks to hear. I'm a very empathetic person. So I always feel the need to help people. I realize though that there's nothing I can do for you. Except maybe if you want to talk to someone that doesn't know you. I can do that. Anyway good luck and I hope you get well.