I didn't read the whole thread. Please forgive me if this has already been covered....

Some of the symptons mentioned in the OP do not sound like anxiety-related stuff. Much of it sounds more like clinical depression-type stuff. Have you seen multiple psychiatrists over your lifetime to get a proper diagnosis and/or treatment?

Lonely_Dolphin said: LuccaCardoso1 said: My parents avoided giving me medication when I was a child, so I went to a psychologist, but even today I try to avoid ingesting drugs unless 100% necessary. Since I have had anxiety for such a long time (attending a psychologist for several years also helped with that), I kinda learned how it works and what to do and what not to do in order to maintain a sustainable level. Yeah, it gets stronger or weaker depending on what's happening in my life, but I fortunately haven't hit a point where I desperately need medication to live yet (and I hope that never happens). So you're fine with having to cope with it? The OP gave me the impression it made every day hell. Well eitherway meds could maybe make it easier to deal with, but I definitely approve of staying clean where possible. I suppose I'm kind of a hypocrite suggesting meds when I don't take any for my arthritis, but that's because I firgured out symptoms only occur when I'm stressed.

I'm not "fine" with having to cope with it. It is everyday hell, but I can live with it, I haven't lost control of my life yet. It's a bit hard to explain and maybe medications would really help with it, but I'm not the biggest meds fan.

Lonely_Dolphin said: Anywho, got any interesting life stories for us? I'm curious as to how you react upon seeing a spider hehe.

I don't think I have any funny spider-related stories, they're just kinda unusual hahahah

We had a ping-pong table in our garage, and I was playing one day with my sister. Then, suddenly, she said "Lucca, there's something behind you". I looked to see what it was, and it was a fucking huge armed spider 10 centimetres away from my feet. I ran directly into the car as fast as I could (since the spider was right in front of the door) and screamed for help.

I remember one day, when me and my family were watching the Brazilian Carnival, and a giant spider appeared from behind the TV and went directly to the door, locking us all inside the room. I don't know what happened, I just know I passed out, and when I woke up the door was open and there were no more spiders.

Those were the two worst situations, but it's not rare in the summer for me to see smaller spiders inside my house. I generally get scared, ask someone to kill it and shake a lot. And then my day's ruined.

VAMatt said: I didn't read the whole thread. Please forgive me if this has already been covered.... Some of the symptons mentioned in the OP do not sound like anxiety-related stuff. Much of it sounds more like clinical depression-type stuff. Have you seen multiple psychiatrists over your lifetime to get a proper diagnosis and/or treatment?

I was thinking about that earlier. The last time I saw a doctor about this stuff was 2 or 3 years ago. I should probably see one soon.

LuccaCardoso1 said: VAMatt said: I didn't read the whole thread. Please forgive me if this has already been covered.... Some of the symptons mentioned in the OP do not sound like anxiety-related stuff. Much of it sounds more like clinical depression-type stuff. Have you seen multiple psychiatrists over your lifetime to get a proper diagnosis and/or treatment? I was thinking about that earlier. The last time I saw a doctor about this stuff was 2 or 3 years ago. I should probably see one soon.

Yeah.  Just make sure you approach all mental health treatment with the healthy dose of skepticism that it deserves.  There certainly is help available.  But, much of it is just 'try this drug, try that drug", in hopes of finding something that kind of works without causing too many other problems along the way.  

With that said, if you're not seeing a therapist, it's probably a good idea to do so, provided that you can afford one. There's no real risk of Side Effects by sitting in an office and talking to someone. So there's really only upside to that route.  

I'm not full blown like you but I do have a problem talking with people even though I have a lot to say. Also I dwell on some very small things as well and I have mild insomnia. My mind runs wild as well and sometimes it just starts repeating meaningless words again and again. I can definitely empathize with many things thankfully never had a full blown panic attack, am not afraid of large crowds, don't have arachnophobia. But it's a struggle plus I have heartburn problems on top of that. Plus I have migraines and cluster headaches. But I deal with it like everyone does but it is super tiring when you worry about things that you can't control and worry in advance over things more than you ever should

LuccaCardoso1 said: Lonely_Dolphin said: So you're fine with having to cope with it? The OP gave me the impression it made every day hell. Well eitherway meds could maybe make it easier to deal with, but I definitely approve of staying clean where possible. I suppose I'm kind of a hypocrite suggesting meds when I don't take any for my arthritis, but that's because I firgured out symptoms only occur when I'm stressed. I'm not "fine" with having to cope with it. It is everyday hell, but I can live with it, I haven't lost control of my life yet. It's a bit hard to explain and maybe medications would really help with it, but I'm not the biggest meds fan. Lonely_Dolphin said: Anywho, got any interesting life stories for us? I'm curious as to how you react upon seeing a spider hehe. I don't think I have any funny spider-related stories, they're just kinda unusual hahahah We had a ping-pong table in our garage, and I was playing one day with my sister. Then, suddenly, she said "Lucca, there's something behind you". I looked to see what it was, and it was a fucking huge armed spider 10 centimetres away from my feet. I ran directly into the car as fast as I could (since the spider was right in front of the door) and screamed for help. I remember one day, when me and my family were watching the Brazilian Carnival, and a giant spider appeared from behind the TV and went directly to the door, locking us all inside the room. I don't know what happened, I just know I passed out, and when I woke up the door was open and there were no more spiders. Those were the two worst situations, but it's not rare in the summer for me to see smaller spiders inside my house. I generally get scared, ask someone to kill it and shake a lot. And then my day's ruined.

In that case you could always just try it and see. If after a while it does more harm then good simply drop it. I wont talk about meds anymore though, you've obviously thought of all that already.

Dang, even passing out! Do you have a plan for if/when you're living on your own? While not to the same extent, I share a fear of bugs aswell, they're just annoying and disgusting! Even so I'm usually able to kill them. I worry what could happen in your case though. A spider appearing making you pass out at an inopportune time with no one around could be dangeous! D:

Lonely_Dolphin said: Dang, even passing out! Do you have a plan for if/when you're living on your own? While not to the same extent, I share a fear of bugs aswell, they're just annoying and disgusting! Even so I'm usually able to kill them. I worry what could happen in your case though. A spider appearing making you pass out at an inopportune time with no one around could be dangeous! D:

Other than living on a high floor, a lot of cleaning and insecticide. Or just calling someone if one too scary appears. I hope I won't pass out, it only happened once and it happened because of a variety of factors other than the spider.