I once kicked the shit out of a bully at school, does that make me an even bigger bully?

There are a few isolated incidents here and there. In what i can only describe as an attempt to fit in i once berated an overweight girl on the bus, which led to her mother coming to my house to tell me off

I also seem to remember being very callous (but not actively abusive) towards a pair of distant relatives who came over one day, but that was more because my friend was there at the time and i was mad that i had to entertain, so i refused to (but still inexcusable)

I was made fun of a lot through 4th grade and 7th, and had a powerfully antagonistic relationship with this douchebag (alpha jock type, big on the baseball team) whose parents died in one of those murder-suicide deals, so no-one was willing to tell him "no," cultivating his jerkassery.

I remember there being kids that stood out for whatever reason. There was a really ugly kid named Benny that we used to all make fun of and try to bully but damn. That kid bully proof. If he saw you staring at him from across the lunch room, he'd walk all the way up to you and punch you in the stomach. The girls were usually pretty good at taking really socially awkward girls and trying to be their friend, too. Even the ugliest, poorest girl would have a popular girl try to make them feel comfortable and let them into their circle. That was a different time and we lived in a smaller town.

As for me, I was a weak kid. I didn't feel comfortable around others. I didn't talk much. I would go an entire day without saying a word to anybody sometimes. Then, other days, it felt like everything I said would make the class laugh. I was pretty inconsistent. I would have been the perfect victim for a bully but (despite being fairly poor) I had really great looks and I was pretty good at acting like I belonged. People actually wanted me to be part of the cooler crowd but I never was. I just sort of existed.

So, no. I wasn't bullied. No exciting bully stories to tell, either. I can relate because I can think like a victim but I can't really give personal experiences.

I never was bullied much or bullied other kids but looking back I feel really bad for anytime I picked on someone or didn't put a stop to any bullying. Now I would definitely stick up for anyone that is being bullied.