How's life going for everyone?

[mZuzek]

curl-6 said:

mZuzek said:

And then he broke up with me suddenly, listing a bunch of things I did he'd never told me about until it was too late to give me a chance.. I can't believe it, I really thought I'd found the one. This is exactly how my previous boyfriend broke up with me too... I'm just completely unlikeable. Unloveable. I'm not meant for happiness. I'll never find it.

:(

It's not the end of the world; I've been there, broke up with someone I dearly loved in 2013 and thought I'd never find that again.

Now I'm coming up on 4 years with someone new who is just as amazing in their own way.

Hang in there mate, it'll get better.

Sigh... I hope so, thanks.

I'm trying to take the right lessons from this. Learn what I didn't learn last time I was broken up with. I need to be a better person to myself before I can be any good for someone else. I don't know how long it'll take for me to feel better and get better, but it'll always sting that I lost such an amazing person. I don't know that I'll ever find someone who makes me feel that good, and well, right now I don't even like the thought of it. I'm still so attached to him. Like wishing he'll change his mind and come back, but knowing he won't... though hopefully we'll be able to salvage a friendship, at least.

Truth is, I needed this to improve as a person. It's so hard to take and it takes so much strength to actually try to take the positives from it instead of lumbering in sorrow and self-hatred. And I've always been a really weak person. But well, it's up to me to change that now.