Hey, thanks for the kind messages/support/advice everyone. I admit I wasn't expecting so much support with this, I always had a feeling that most people around the site were pretty "normal" productive people, I didn't think many would relate to or even try to understand my position. I have had ideas for how to get a move on in life, just haven't chased them with enough intent. Right now, it's hard to find intent for obvious reasons, but hopefully I just need some time to figure things out. Which sucks to say, because I've basically spent the past decade saying "I just need some time", but anyhow...
As for the Greatest Games Event, I was hoping that if anyone was to take over, it'd be someone with more "techy" knowledge. Like, there's definitely ways that a lot of the process could be automated, and that'd make it easier for anyone to host it, but I've no idea how to do that kind of thing. Maybe if someone knows something or has an idea, we could work together to make a system that makes the whole thing easier, I don't know. Either way I don't want the event to end.
And yeah I'm not really leaving. I'm not even sure this thread is a goodbye as much as it is an acknowledgment that I haven't been active in a long time and will likely stay inactive. But it helps that y'all were so supportive, I really didn't expect all of this, thank you.