tehsage said:
I thought I had a pretty clear idea of how my life would go in high school. I expected to stay this my girlfriend until college and be happy with her. But, wow, I was I wrong.
Awhile back, I posted a thread talking about how my girlfriend cheated on me with another girl, who also happened to be one of my best friends, which lead her to question her own sexuality. Now, after that incident, I realized how much I began to not care about my girlfriend as much as I used to. And, the other day, July 3rd to be exact, I broke up with her. Now, this is the girl I've been dating since Janurary 19th, 2007. It wasn't something easy to do and she took is pretty bad. And hell, I'm still a bit upset but I can't help how I feel and I'm not in love with her anymore. Also, I want her to explore her own sexuality even though she's so afraid. But, we talked it out and both agreed it was for the best.
Now, one of the other reasons I left my girlfriend was because about a month ago I began developing interest in this new girl. I really hated the idea of being unloyal to this girl because I wanted her to be happy also. =/ I've been hanging out with the new girl at least once a week since then. I really like this girl and whenever I'm with her I have such a great time and she does too. It's funny though, we have hardly any common interests other then we appreciate music. But, we can just sit down and talk and enjoy each others company. Which, I believe is pretty important. But, moving on. Now, I'm single and I like this girl. And, this girl knows I like her because, well, we discussed it. The good news is she also likes me. However, she's not fully sure that she wants to date me. It's odd, because, yesterday, I went to hang out with her during her lunch/dinner break from her job. We went to dinner and then hunt out at the local mart. And, It was just so fun. I can't explain why but we make each other laugh and it's great. Now, after I left, she went back to her job. During her job, many guys flirt with her because she's a very attractrive and flirty girl. But, she told me that when the guys flirted with her that day, that it didn't bother her because she knew she had me and felt loyal to me. Now, I was pretty much chocked up when I heard that because that meant a lot. Haha. Now, here comes the bad part. We talked about a relationship and she said she was pretty sure about it. I asked her why she wasn't fully sure and well, she said she wasn't sure how physically attracted to me she was. XD I actually LOL'd right when I heard that. Man, I felt a bit unattractive there. XD But, I can't make a person find me attractive. She then said she wanted to find out. And, man. The next time we're gonna see each other is next Sunday and I'm tired of waitng already. T_T I've been thinking of her all day and waiting for her to get online so we can talk.
The other bad part is I'm going to be a senior in high school next year and she's going to be a freshmen in college. But, she's going to a college really close to where I live so it's not that big of a deal.
She want's to find out if she's physically attracted to me. What does that mean? I'm confused. Any halp would be appreciated. I have no idea what to do now.. ;_;
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