Probably not gonna have kids/my own family and trying to make peace with that

[Farsala]

Have kids, or don't. It doesn't matter if they get autism, they deserve a life too. And if you truly wanted a kid, their ailments won't matter to you either. All kids will have problems that need to be solved.

I desired to have kids before 30, but it looks like it won't happen. Next goal: have kids before I am 31.