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I'm not very well known here obviously, I haven't officially been here for long (been a lurker for years though). So what I'm going to say honestly doesn't hold any weight or mean much but I at least want to give a proper farewell instead of just disappearing. So I've been suffering from a very terrible extreme case of depression, lets just say one of the last things I ever wanted to happen, happened at the beginning of this year. I began actually being more active and discussion in threads and what not to try to help me deal with this issue, and to distract me from it if possible. I've talked to countless of people, my brother, my parents, close friends, a psychiatrist which honestly I don't really have money for. And nothing. In fact I feel worse as time has passed, add that to how things gradually have become worse, a bunch of undesirable situations, lost chances, burned bridges, lost opportunities, and too many uncertainties for the future. I'm mentally and physically in a lot of pain, throughout the days I experience heart pains, headaches or migraines, and pain on other parts of my body. I've barely been able to sleep most of the time I just lay there crying and don't manage to sleep unless I stay up for at least 2 days before I can sleep and when I do sleep most of the time I have to deal with nightmares or dreams that really fuck me up when I wake up. So I don't really get a break from this at any time. Many days I half expect when I do sleep I may not wake up. It looks like I've rapidly aged a bit. I'm not a suicidal person, I am very against suicide, but it really is hard to cling to anything anymore. I've only been trying to keep going for my brother and parents, but honestly I'm finding it really hard to keep clinging onto anything. As pathetic as it sounds Kingdom Hearts 3 and The Final Fantasy 7 Remake are two reason I've even been trying so hard to keep going, but like I said It's getting too hard. So that's about it. Farewell everyone, good luck, make sure you appreciate every moment you have with the people and things that mean the most to you, if you can maybe go out of your way every now and than to show them how much they mean to you, never stop enjoying the games and things you love. And hopefully if I'm still around and magically everything turns around and gets good I'll come back to annoy you guys.