Well... i think you made some mistakes. If you cared so much about security, and i can understand that, you should not have had a child.
The child did not ask to be born, you made it. As such, he is in this world because of you. He is innocent and has had no fault in how he was born. He is your responsibility, he is part of you. For me, it's difficult to read the things you say about him, but i guess you are you and i don't know you.
Like, my advice is for you to think about security for you and your son. The fact that you are seing different people at the same time is so bogus to me.
Tell you what, love is a chemical reaction that slowly fades away. What you want is companionship and the situation that will shield you from the fear.







