Really hope medication and therapy do make you feel better.
If you ever feel like your cross is too heavy and start thinking about the future with not soo good feelings, remember that, in truth, no one knows it's own future and no matter how "certain" you feel about your future, you just don't know for sure, do you? :)
One thing i hear quite often, and do believe in, is that everyone has their own cross to bear. But that doesn't come without God's help in carrying that same cross.
Usually people tend to run away from their pains, but a few - and i really mean a few - do embrace it for the sake of themselves and even others. In the end it brings them peace and comfort because they know that there's a reason for their suffering.
I don't know if you are a person of faith or not, just remember you are not alone - and never will be -, ok? :)
