Suicidal thoughts. Before doing anything, listen to this.

[SvennoJ]

I had many suicidal thoughts as a teenager, even in my early twenties. Someone actually killed themselves by jumping out the kitchen window in the dorm I lived in (12th floor) I didn't know him, it didn't deter me either.

Yet I decided it wouldn't be fair to my parents and I should at least outlive them. They're still alive and by my mid twenties I grew out of it. Luckily bullying is taken more seriously nowadays, even in my early thirties I still had a physical reaction to hearing teenagers laugh. My self esteem didn't fully come back until I had my own kids.