| John2290 said: Well, I ask myself this question from time to time. "If I were to die a minute from now, would I have lived enough" and at 27, I find the answer always to be yes, I have regrets and sure I could do more but I've experienced more noval things than I could possibly care for, all I wanna do now is quiten down and ponder, maybe jump off some high places a few times. You seem to be doing the reverse of that? Experience now after thinking about it in your youth? |
No not at all really. I enjoy having settled down after growing roots in a new place, and appreciate simply being where I am now. I used to travel a lot in holidays and between, experimented with drugs, drowned myself in work, partied until 11am etc. Nowadays I enjoy a daily routine a lot more than my younger self would ever have been able to put up with. Yet I also pay more attention to and really experience my surroundings, the passing of the seasons, changes in the landscape, and of course my kids growing up. Perhaps it's having kids that changes you or it's simply growing older.
Would I have lived enough? No, my kids still need me. Plus I promised my wife that I will outlive her. It's not that I'm more lazy nowadays, heck I cycled 127km yesterday to enjoy the weather and see the city outline of Toronto out over the crashing waves. I'm simply happy with where I am, while when I was young the grass was always greener on the other side.
In my youth I thought alot about more experiences, more places to see. It's not that I wouldn't enjoy them nowadays, it's that I don't really care about that anymore. Maybe we'll go travel again when the kids are older, they haven't seen anything yet.
Or in simulation terms, my neural network AI routines have reached a agreeable local maximum, my stochastic gradient has flattened out, for now. (Still a few more years before I get to midlife crisis age..)
So yes, quiet down, it's lovely.
