As a complete loner, all I can really say is you need people for support, and help. What about those people who had high expectations for you? They obviously wanted you to succeed, and they might help you if you ask them. To escape the life you have now, you first need to figure out what kind of life you want to have and have the people who care about you help you reach it. Try going back to college. It doesn't have to be a university, maybe a community college or technical school. From there, proceed and establish as many contacts with people as you can. You need them to climb up the career ladder. Also, comfortability is a dangerous thing in this case. People get stuck with their life because they become comfortable with it, even if it is a life they may not have wanted.
