Yeah, it silly sometimes to think how attached you can get to things. Gaming especially, since it's not just an object, but a portal to almost countless experiences. I received a PlayStation with Final Fantasy 7 the first time I saw my father after my mother abruptly moved me and my brothers out of the house to the next town. FF7 has huge importance to me too, it was practically a switch that transformed me from reading books to concentrating on story driven games.
Going through this process isn't something I've just started, it has been a build up of weeks, if not months. Just listing some of this stuff has taken me a week to post it.
Well, all I can do is wish you for a brighter life if this helps accomplishing it. Whatever you do, it's something you can always go back to in the future, so the doors are never closed forever :)