it makes me feel sad that I dont feel things towards those closest to me by blood that I should. I dont know why, and it scares me, they are the ones I should feel closest too but I feel totally detached from them.

I dont think im schizoid (if I ever thought I could hurt someone else the first place I would go is the police station and hand myself in), though I guess if I was I would say that anyway, I just feel broken becuase I cant feel for them.

The best way to find out if you can trust somebody is to trust them.

Ernest Hemmingway