I know Dr. Grass your banned and I'm not even sure if you'll respond to this.
I've had very little interaction with you over the years but all the interaction I've had with you... I have recieved the vibe of a total asshole. But now after coming to an understanding with your OP you seem a lot more frank and I respect your honesty. Firstly those emotions that you were showing during the night could have been caused for various reasons.
1. Lack of anything to drink or eat
2. Being Tired and Frustrated
3. Procrastination (Tends to make people emotional)
4. Boredom
Due to those 4 factors (clearly there are many more but those are the three apparent ones) you are over thinking about pretty much everything in your life and thus, coming to this conclusion. Maybe you have ADHD, I'm not sure about that but its is apparent that you are gifted and many people would have to manage to study 25 hours a day to get the same degree you have. You however jerk off, play video games and web browse and manage to get through University. However based on your writing you clearly have ambitions to succeed (and in my dictionary ambition is everything) but due to the overdose of time wasting you have forgotten about you ambition but it has always been there. Why was it that particular day that you had a realization? I don't know. Your problem is actually very simple. These steps should help you solve it.
1. Spend less time web browsing, gaming, and jerking off and more time with your girlfriend, studying (if you like what you are doing) and other forms of social activity.
2. Exercise regularly (YOU NEED THIS)
3. Make a plan for when you will get your work done everyday. Basically a schedule that allows for some spontaneous events as well.
4. Get therapy in the form of your friends, girlfriend, parents and other family members (everyone needs this)
Edit: And what you siad to that guy..even if you had a 180 + IQ no wayin hell are you going to get anywhere in your life man if you keep that up...even if its just a VG site.
