JoeFlex said:
Was it not reciprocal then? Elaborate, if u don't mind. I might have been at one point, but I noticed I loved her more than she loved me at year 2 or 3, so I dropped some of those feelings lol Or at least I trained myself to. That's a dangerous situation to be in - when you're in deeper than the other person. At one point it seemed as if I was diving and she was doggy paddling. I'm not up for that shit. All in or bust. Seems like you two were on different wave lengths. Well ... at least you can be friends. Mind deleted me on Skype, Twitter, Whatsapp .... everything. |
Well, I don't want to get into all the messy details, but the long and short of it was that I wasn't happy and looked to other people (girls) for companionship. I mean, I didn't cheat on her, but I definitely kissed some girls and partied a lot because I just wasn't getting that kind of attention at home. It was just like one headache after another. It was almost as if my sole existence was just to make her feel good. There was no reciprocity, just me worrying about her bills, and constant unwarranted criticism.
At one point, early on I did love her more than she loved me, and she broke my heart, breaking up with me for another guy. After we got back together in like, year 3, she loved me more.
But yeah, we started on the same page and just somehow ended up on different wavelengths. That's exactly the right phrase. She just stopped being my girlfriend and was just more like a roommate who I had sex with and hung out with.
PS: When I say I loved, and still love her, I mean as a person. Not only is she beautiful, and smart, and funny, her personality is just so great. We COULD be best friends, so long as the 'responsibilities' of a relationship didn't exist....if that makes sense to you.
