I can't control my thoughts anymore.

[kungfuian]

Just want to say it's good you are reaching out. This forum might not be the best place for help but it's a good place to start.

some thoughts-

99% of the mental ailments found in western cultures are the result of overly active minds and lack of physical activity. I highly recommend finding some kind of Tai Chi, yoga, or zen type of meditative practice and make it a regular part of your life. Also, more vigorous forms of exercise can be helpful in promoting a more regulated and overall healthier system (less prone to mood swings). They can also offertemporary releif (hard to think and run at the same time for example) and helps purge poisons from your body.

If you must take meds you need your's changed ASAP, either they are the wrong ones for you or the amounts you are taking are insufficient. you should bring this to your doctor's attention NOW!

don't smoke pot- it is a stimulant and causes an increased heart rate and blood pressure, and therefore is likely to increase symptoms of anxiety.

do not use alcohol- it is a depressant and also significantly dehydrates you, it will deplete your system and leave you feeling depressed for sure.

experiment with diet- overly processed foods, food allergies, consuming too much food, etc can all amplify the symptoms your having, and in some cases are the cause.

try to identify what triggers, if any, instigate your feelings of anxiety/depression. Then reprogram yourself to respond differently to those specific things and/or remove them from your life. This takes lots of practice but can be very effective.

There are lot's of other good recommendations made here in this thread and countless books and experts who will tell you they have the answer. Truth is you must find the answer, or combination of answers, that work for you. Keep trying and you will eventually find those things.

Best of luck to you