I never planned on cheating. I was as square as they come. Didn't lose my virginity until I was weeks away from turning 22 (and I had been in the Air Force. How the heck do you join the military and STILL not get laid!?). Never drank. Never did drugs. Never partied. Didn't even have a girlfriend in High School. Didn't plan on losing my virginity until marriage. I was as innocent and naive as they come. Just like many of you here, I never planned on cheating and I despised the idea of it and couldn't comprehend why anybody would do that to someone they "loved".
Well, there's an old saying: "A man is a loyal as his options"
I never was the kind of person that had a bunch of guy friends. Later on, in life, I always had an easier time talking to women. They view was much better. They always thought the stuff I said was funny. I was the center of attention. That was all well and good. Anyway, things happened.
Long story, short: It's easy to say "I'll never cheat" when you don't have self confidence or you aren't attractive or you don't have a lot of attention. When you have girls throwing themselves at you, telling you how bad your relationship is and how they'd be a better girlfriend, jumping into your car asking to see your penis (True story), and popping up at your house at night--then, tell me how loyal you are. Yeah, it was selfish and yes I was a dog and yes, I hurt someone that loved me. If I had it to do all over again, I think I'd still do it.
Feel free to judge me.
