happydolphin said:
I watched enough of it to get completely stuffed and bored with it. It's a trick I learned 15 years in. I also learned to be more selective of my porn and realize that there is porn I enjoy, and porn I dislike, and that it's not all good stuff. That one I knew, but I really understood it 15 years in (it took to regularly watch some stuff I consider just bad porn, and then to watch some stuff I consider quality porn, to finally realize it). So, I learned to take it with the goal of pleasure rather than what was usually compulsion. That made me do it less often. There are other ways that helped me stop but some of those are out of my control. For one, it can make me feel terribly unhappy, and I don't like being unhappy. It would litterally put a sad expression on my face. Someone once asked me "why are you sad", and I knew why I looked like that. It's also put me in very unpleasant moods with my family members. It also makes me sweaty down there, and I don't like that it gives me rashes and makes me feel uncomfortable. The sweating and rash are new, but becoming unhappy I started getting that early on but I'd say about 2 years in. Every now and again it'll push me to the edges of my sanity, does something in my brain I can't explain, makes it feel all cold inside my head, so I stay away from it as much as possible to stay sane for as long as I can. I'd say that though I never took heroine, I'm pretty sure ejaculating has a similar affect to me as heroine would to a heroine addict. Of course I've learned to deal with it, but to be completely honest, considering the physical harm it's caused me and the emotional sabotage and lost opportunities for potential relationships, I would've prefered it had not been a part of my life. |
What about Masturbation in general?
