NintendoPie said:
Majora said:
On one hand I'm so proud of the length of time I've been with my fella. But I realise I'm doing it to give credence to a relationship in which, if I'm honest, I'm desperately miserable. But I feel I don't have a right to be miserable. He treats me awesome. I just wanna say something.
I've ALWAYS been for monogamous relationships, but finding out what my other half was doing fucked if up for me. I forgive him and love him but since that whole episode I just don't feel the same. I don't have hat feeling. It's not his fault (he's apologised profusely and has been an angel since) and although I believe him, I just feel so differently since he did it. I feel lost and I feel so disconnected to him. I just don't feel "it" anymore. The feeling I had when I fell in love. And I feel so selfish. I forgive him so why can't that be the end? He tells me he loves me everyday, but I just don't feel that anymore. I feel - the easiest I can describe is distant. Like I wanna be there but I'm not. :( |
After he cheated on you all this happened. That should tell you something.
You don't feel "it" anymore because you were betrayed in a sense.
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I just don't feel what I did before I found out what happened. I don't want to feel this way, I've forgiven him, so why can't I just go back to normal? I just think our relationship is basically a joke now. He tries SO hard to put things right, why can't I just let go and say its all fine? I'm so mad at myself. I just wanna go back to how it was before. Am I a bad person?
