Cub said:
1) No gay Muslim I've met actually believes that, it's well established that you can be gay and a Muslim even if you act upon the gay feelings, you are a sinner (one of the worst sins), not Kafer, that's ABC Islam here. My experience was the exact opposite, I stuck to prayer and mosques, I didn't miss a prayer for 7 years. Waiting for the cure never worked, so I seeked professional medical help and I spent my savings on psychiatrists who just kept prescribing anti depressants (how professional). To cut a long story short, I startred reading , lots of reading, about Hadith (and the rules that Bokhari, Muslim followed writing their books) and started to realise how poorly these books are constructed and how fragile the whole logic behind these books is. Ofc being a very devouted Muslim back then I was in denial for sometime but when I snapped out of it I started questioning and reading, then more questioning and reading and in the end, I ended being a very happy proud gay man So prohibiting yourself from basic human needs is ok while living a Gay lifestyle is mentally destructive? on what earth? You made your choice and you are happy about it, good for you, please don't spread such false images about the lifestyle of the homosexuals. 2) This shouldn't move you, I can share experiences of people who converted to christianity and being so happy about it , or to buddism, or to Sunni , or to Shee3a , etc. It literally means nothing. 3) You will never be ready to live with a girl the way you lived with boys. Come to Jordan, I'll introduce you to the 10000 scums that chose to marry women just to secure their future and have kids that will take care of them when they are old and ugly, leading double lives, fooling themselves with "in allah gafoor raheem" while admitting that women will never fill that void. I admire your patience and the fact that you are not rushing into marriage just like every Muslim gay guy I met has done. I also admire your parents capacity and tolerance. I think some of the Sweden values have found their way to your family. 4) I used to think that all the time I spent reaching out to god was a total waste, my perpespective changed recently and I believe that this is god's answer to my prayers, accepting myself the way I am and focus my energy on what really matters. I stopped being bitter, I have achieved a lot in the last 2 years, and I was telling miz earlier that great things are coming my way soon. I started helping people, now I teach kids for free, and I plan to do more in the next 2 years. I have NEVER felt closer to god. 5) I don't believe in the same god you believe in. I like to think that my god doesn't care if I worship him in mosques , he cares more about what I actually do to help myself and people to live better. He cares if I am good guy or not, being gay doesn't make me a worse/better person. Sorry of any of this sounded aggressive, just sharing experiences here, it may help you see things the way your experience may help me to see things. Have a good day. |
as I said before you choose your path and if you feel the path you have taken is the right one then I won't argue with you :)
you don't need to be aggressive about the destructive part as I am not making that up but you choose to believe what you want of course. maybe you haven't been in the gay scene as long as I have
also the guys in Sweden aren't very attractive so I barely meet anyone (Sorry Swede guys) in Lebanon on the other hand WOOFFF!! but everyone just want to have sex so fuck them all!
R.I.P Mr Iwata :'( | ||