Well I am having a shitty day. Work in a restaurant so cross trained as both kitchen staff and waiter. Had to close the restaurant today as a kitchen member, was fucking hard work. And the pay is shit to top it off, at least it's a good experience in life I suppose, to actually do some back breaking work before settling in for a nice, boring, shitty desk job.
Also was texting a girl from work today, she's full 6 years older than me, however.. We've clicked, supposedly she loves me and thinks I am cute but thinks she's terrible at relationships so if we do decide to take it to the next level she thinks that she'll end up ruining it and therefore ruining the friendship that we have now. Not going to lie, I am disappoint. Couldn't express it properly over the text so we're meeting together for a face to face. Shitting myself now, but whatcha gonna do. With my personality of complete utter shyness and inability to take shit seriously I can see where this is heading. Meanwhile I'll be chilling in le friendzone, and mulling things over, although after a couple of texts she seemed more open to the concept of dating.. I don't know, life is ever so complicated. Oh also did I mention that she's my manager? I am beginning my management training at a different restaurant in a couple of weeks, they're not really that far apart.. But it's got to the stage now where I NEED her to make the decision whether I am forever in le friendzone or this is actually going somewhere, despite that decision I intend to remain friends, of course it'll be hard but once I start dating someone else(eventually) it'll get much easier. I think I am likely to start looking at the latter as my main course of action because I do enjoy her company alot.
I mean seriously, what kind of girl texts you at 4pm asking if you want to come around to get drunk? I slept on the floor in any case, tanked it like a boss. It was freezing, a cat licked my face. I feel weird posting this shit on the internet for people I dont even know personally to read, but whatever, I need to get it out of my system because my scumbag friends dont want to seem to go to a pub for me to have an opportunity to actually talk to someone about this. Fucking assholes. (I dont mean it in a rude way, but definitely the angry way)
Also my piece of shit computer KIA'd, so I can't even play any games, and in any case, I've decided to take a backseat in terms of gaming, and not stay up too late. Well I am currently failing the second objective, as I only finished work at 12 AM! But went the whole day without playing anything, that's an achievement right? I am a gaming junkie after all.
/endshittyliferant.
Disconnect and self destruct, one bullet a time.
