| hatmoza said: I live a happy and stable life free from insecurities that will drive me to use any form of drug. |
Sounds like your life sucks, kidding, kidding.
I always avoided drugs as a youth because I didn't want to be pressured into doing anything. At around 19 I just got really curious as to what was up with all of this stuff after seeing incredibly intelligent people that I was in school with experimenting. I have used drugs in my life at times just for the hell of it, to see what it was like. Never wanted to try heroin or meth or crack, but I have dabbled in other stuff just to see what it was like.
I tried acid twice, the first time not on purpose. I gave a girl down the hall from me in my dorms some Jack Daniels for a joint. She didnt tell me that the joint had acid in it. It tasted awful, but it was like the 5th time I had ever smoked, and the first time not with people much more experienced than me, so I figured I just got crappy weed. 15 minutes in, every thing was fine, I was high, feeling good, ready to jam out to some reggae and pregame for a party later that night. Soon after everything went to hell. The corners of the walls inverted and were all pointing at me, I could hear faint whispers and could almost make out what they were saying. I was trying to play CounterStrike, but I felt like I actually got shot everytime I died in the game. Then, I heard a spinning sound. This spinning got louder and higher pitched. I realized that it was an axel in my head, and that it was spinning at 80% capacity. Then it was 90%, then 110%. I thought if it got any faster, it would explode and my brain would melt. So, I got into the shower, fully clothed, sat down with my head in between my legs with the water on cold, and sat there sobbing for like 4 hours. I woke up in the morning, cold, wet, miserable, but sober. Didn't drink, smoke, do anything for like 2 weeks until I saw the girl again and asked her what was in the weed. When she told me acid, I understood a little better, and vowed never to do it again.
Later I had friends explain to me that doing acid by yourself is a horrible idea, and that you need control over set and setting. I did it once more when I was 22 with some hippy friends in a more controlled environment and it went a lot better. Very introspective and intense. I feel like I gained a lot of insight, and I am very happy that I gave it another chance. However, that is it for me, it was a once (ok twice) in a life time experience that I am glad that I had, but that I don't really feel the need to repeat.
