trasharmdsister12 said:
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Mordred11 said:
I'm very familiar with that feeling...
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All the years of school, all the years of being nice, all that time spent exercising, all the years of being respectful, all the effort put into balancing everyone's needs above my own... and all I'm left to do is toil with my thoughts in isolation. I feel like I can't better myself anymore and it still isn't enough. I still feel inadequate despite what my achievements are or what people say. And I can't for the sake of me figure out why I just can't be happy or enjoy life.
We spend our lives searching like scavenges finding a way
Understanding that light is a sign of the day
So we squint in the darkness in search of a glow
And falter in trying, in trials we grow
Are hearts they seem broken
Our legs they are weak
Our tongues are exhausted from trying to speak
Cause sometimes they listen
But often they don’t
We easily help
But more often we won’t
Because we’ve constructed the things that we want
Ghosts our desires, desire to haunt
But our needs as below so above
What we all want should look a little more like love.
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Shame man
I think I was an asshole to you recently (I am quite often too critical of people's statements) so sorry about that...
So I actually feel the same as you guys...
Some days I just don't want to get up. Then I get up and do NOTHING productive the WHOLE day and get depressed because of it. It's pathetic and weak and even though I don't like it, there isn't much resistance building up in me to try and 'fight the fight' if you know what I mean.
Now when I say 'some days' then it really means 'most days' lately. My professors have even stopped asking me why I don't come to University since they've heard all my lame excuses before.
You are not alone.
PS Where in India do you live? There are some magical places there that can uplift even the heaviest of hearts you know.
