What Happens When We Die...

[sparticus112b]

I can't even tell you the amount of time in the last year or so I've thought about this. If you have faith then you're not supposed to tackle it logically but when I do think about it logically, it is hard for me to comprehend how evolution gave us sight and sound and the rest of our senses. How the hell did evolution know that there was anything to actually see or hear in the first place.

I try not to think about it. If you just die...then it doesn't really matter because you won't even know that you are dead because you have no conscious anymore and it makes everything so irrelevant. 9/11, the death of my grandparents, concentration camps during World War 2. Why does any of that matter if there is no afterlife, why should we care about pollution or anything of that nature. Why don't we just live our lives in gluttony.

Then I thought about our own natural morals that we have and I did some research to see when we start developing morals and empathy and everything of that nature and the research lead me in the direction that the very first signs of this are at a very very young age. Who knows that, that's just when they can recognize that we've developed those traits.

My roommate believes in ghosts but I don't believe in ghosts. For some reason, I am terrified of ghosts and I don't even believe in them. That makes no sense. I don't believe in them and I swear my room is haunted and that the back kitchen at the Tukwila Applebee's is haunted.

I'll tell you one thing though, I really really wish I was one of those people that had faith because death is scary and I wish I could have that comfort they must have that everything will be okay.