Wonktonodi said:
sad.man.loves.vgc said:
Wonktonodi said:
Pemalite said:
Wonktonodi said:
In some ways yes. In other ways no. I have many other issues with my life I've had to deal with since then and although I think I could be with a guy again I don't know if I'm really in a state where a guy would want to be with me.
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Mate, that sucks to have everything going so right in life... Then in an instant have it all go so wrong!
Also... Don't worry about whether a guy would want to be with you or not, people are as varied as the colours of the rainbow, if you feel you're ready to move on, then someone out there would indeed be willing!
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Maybe I should specify the state I'm in at the moment. Unemployed nor currently in school and living with my parents. So what I was saying there is I need to get my own act together. Just really hard to find the motivation most days.
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I see....
Don't worry dude. I think the hardest part is over.
Just know It will always hurt when you remember him that's for sure but with time it will hurt less and less. You can and should start hoping and working on your future. You are still younge and from what I gathered you are very nice guy.
Go out on dates and meet people. Even if you think you are not ready. Listen to them and look at their lives, they will get you thinking and you will get inspired and motivated. It doesn't help that you are an introvert but try 
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Thanks and I agree with most of that. However do remember a few days ago about my posts about dating. I am out there well sometimes just not the most outgoing type in adition to being a bit hard to go out with no funds. Although I'm now making a little money so that might help a bit.
Also I don't think it will ever hurt less. It just hurts less often. That and I remember something I left out of the story. The end of the last conversation we had. Gives me chills when I think about it to long. A few hours before his confrence he called me at work which he often did. However as we were saying goodbye. I said talk to you latter. He replied not if I never talk to you again. His tone of voice was a bit odd and I was really taken aback I don't remember what I said in responce but something along the lines of what do you mean? and of corse we will talk again. He laughed it off saying yeah yeah talk to you latter. Sadly I don't remember if either of us said I love you in the goodbyes but that conversation had really seemed odd. I didn't think much of it at the time though since I was still at work and was sure I'd see him again sometime soon.
I think there will always be questions from that that I reall don't want to know the answers to.
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I totally understand. It's why I am sometimes thankful that I am single because I need to save money and work on my educational status first.
oh man... That's awful. 
Sometimes not knowing is all you need to know.
