Really sad story!

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d21lewis said:

sapphi_snake said:

d21lewis said:

sapphi_snake said:

d21lewis said:
Wow. I'm speechless. During my cop days, we had to get a guy out of a trailer who was apparently dead for several days (I took a pic with my cell phone--still have it). It was horrible.

Yeah sure. It was so horrible that you took a pic of it and kept it, and even look at it from time to time.

It was horrible.  It didn't bring me to tears or anything.  After about a year of being a cop, I became desensitized to a lot of things.  I have pics of guys who commited suicide, car accidents, house fires, etc.  Does my taking a pic of them make them any less horrible?  The guy was brown (except for the parts covered by clothes), despite the fact that he was a white guy.  His skin was like tissue paper.  We had to pick him up and put him into a body bag.  When we did, his back ripped open an bugs came out.  Sounds pretty horrible, right?  I didn't say it moved me.  Afterwards, I went home, changed uniforms, and ate dinner.  That still doesn't mean it wasn't one of the most grizzly things I've ever seen.

I actually edited the more graphic parts from my original post and went with the "I'm speechless". 

Hehe, I was just joking around, making fun of how lots of people find such sights to be "cool", and would put them up as their desktop background.

I should have figured, Sapphi.  I'm actually a fan of yours and if I took the time to see who was posting instead of what was posted, I should have caught that.  To be honest, the contents of my SD card have been used in court, several times (we'd print the pics out, of course).  I didn't always have a camera but I always had my phone.  I took pics of everything.

And while I enjoyed having that job and I think I'm pretty normal, I think that I lost some of my humanity because of some of the things I saw.  But, this isn't about me.  And I do genuinely feel sad for what that daughter had to go through.  If I thought about it hard enough (which I tend to not do because I'd depress myself), I'd probably be crying right now.

have to ask, but would watching law and order to csi so much for most of my life would make me more desensitized. I have always wondered if watching these shows offer anything worthy because it has not helped me in La Niore which i fought would.