Well, a little backstory: I didn't really have a girlfriend through high school and didn't lose my virginity until I was 21 years old. I was always sorta shy (even though people seemed to like me and girls actually did try to talk to me). I didn't plan to even have sex until I was married. Now that we've gotten that out of the way...
Yes. I've cheated. Lord knows how many times with how many people. At the time, I was able to convince myself that I was in love with the girl, that I was a victim, that I got engaged too quickly (my fiance was the third girlfriend I'd ever had), or whatever I had to tell myself to justify what I was doing. At the time, it felt right. Hell, sometimes, it felt pretty awesome. Now, I look at how I treated a girl that (AFAIK) never messed around on me, gave birth to my only child, and aside from being a little (by "a little", I mean "she'll probably murder me someday--I'm not kidding") jealous is more than I could have ever hoped for. I have some interesting memories and a few lingering feelings but for the most part, I really wish I'd just been faithful from the beginning.
I just wanted to throw in that top part to say this: No matter who you are, what you believe in, or how strong your moral convictions are, there is a possibility that you can stray. 19 year old d21lewis would have been shocked and appalled by the actions of 21 year old d21lewis. And 40 year old d21lewis is going to grab a time machine and go back in time to molest 15 year old d21lewis.......but that is a story for another thread.
