Ninjas don't deny pain, they face it. They tolerate it, they force themselves through it, but they never deny its existence. Pain is a very useful thing. And honestly, you're just making me annoyed in a lot of ways. Your life doesn't impress me that much, so I'd rather you not keep making threads about it. And this one is broken, so it's even more fail than usual.
Look, you're at an age that will affect you for the rest of your life. You have many years ahead of you, and so far your plans are to sit around and do drugs and chase some fantasy dream that won't come true. If you can't understand what will come of that, you must still be trippin'.