Akvod said:
I mean, I like video games but I don't want to or know how I can make one. Even if I wanted to be an artist, someone who wants to play an instrument, some super hacker, etc I needed to have started long before. I'm actually kinda feeling down in my Freshman year since so many kids already know what they want to be (my roomate wants to be a doctor), and I have NOTHING. Absolutely NOTHING. I came to college just because it's what everyone's doing and felt like the natural next step. In reality, I have no ambition.
I'm a guy that loves to be bossed around. If someone coaches me, dicates my actions, etc I'll do it to my fullest effect. But when given nothing, I'll just waste away.
My purpose in life is pleasure, I love food, I love games, I love movies, I love masturbating, I love sleeping, I love taking hot baths in my parents' jaquzee (sp?), I love reading the books I like to read, I love to fucking stare at shit that I find interesting (a ground covered with granite in a really bright day, bugs, rust, RAINY DAYS are fucking awesome), I like to listen to random music, etc. I can't really dedicate myself to that though... the only thing I can dedicate myself is to get a job so I can enjoy those things... there's no job that I actually desire O.o |
Haha. Reminds me of me.
Ironically though I later realized I actually do enjoy making complex systems, math and such.
My advice would be....
chances are you really like something that people have spent all their lives convincing you nobody likes... try stuff you've never really tried or looked into because people told you you'd never like it.








