I Need Help With Something... Please Tell Me If This Is True of You 2

[bigjon]

Ok, this might sound really "out there" to some of you, but this is something that has been bugging me my entire life. I have never told anyone because I figured they would think I am crazy or something of that nature, or they would think I am just full of shit. I am hoping maybe someone else here has this same "problem/ anomoly, or maybe someone at least knows what it is.... Well here it goes.

I have always had a really really great long term memory (i have a good short term mem, but nothing amazing- so no I do not have a photographic memory or anything like that.) Like I could ace a history test I took 8 years ago or whatnot, but it might take me the same amount of time for me to memorize a part in a play or what not. Ok, so this is where it get a little weird, even to me. I have many memories of things that happened my entire life, i remember not being able to crawl, and being very frustrated at my immobility. I remember people trying to talk to me, and being very confused at what they were doing... I have a VIVID memory of when I was around 2 or so, and before that it is more like images, or a slide show... you know what i mean? Ok so ya I have told people that and basically they just say I created the memories because of home video or whatever. But many of those thoughts were of times we have no pictures, and before we bought our camera. Also they are 1st person, if that means anything.... Another weird thing is I can remember things in perfect sequence years later, if I knew them originally. Like I cant tell you what date I bought my N64 at because I did not know it at the time. but I could give you the week, the amount I paid for it, where i bought, what games were got with it, who was with me, etc. And that was just a random night in 1998.

Ok this is the one "group" of memories I never tell ANYONE about. I have memories of being in darkness, hearing muffled noises and not being able to more or see. I remember the emotion of fear only. I also have a memory of a certain point where things became "hectic" and the voices and such were louder, then being in light fairly suddenly... ya what else could that be. What make this set of memories hard to explain is at the time I did not have the Ability to think in a lang, my thought were based on emotion, and no logic or words even. There were no visual objects either... So it is really hard for me to explain "exactly" what I remember.

 

I have been trying to find an answer to why I can do this, I know most people cant because I was scoffed at for mentioning I could remember my 3rd birthday... lol. The only theory I have every come up with it the part of my brain that creates "flash" memories is Over active, like you know how most people can remember where they were when 9/11 happened or what not. Well what causes that to happen I believe is your brain sectretes a hormone that cause the part of your brain that encodes memories to work "overtime"... So basically maybe something up there is messed up and even a moderate emotion causes that hormone to kick in.... that is best I have come up with....

 

help

 

btw- the reason I suddenly posted this is because my mind was going through all of my memories, and I could not sleep... lol.