I can't control my thoughts anymore.

[Mr Puggsly]

tonymarraffa said:

What my problem is: breathing, as in I'm always thinking about it and cant stop paying attention to it and doing it, always trying to take a bigger and more complete breath thats feels right otherwise i feel really really uncomfortable; blinking, as in i cant stop thinking about it and i cant stop blinking constantly, like literally every 1 2 seconds,sometimes swallowing; fingers and toes  feel uncomfortable they can't touch so i have to keep cracking them; armpits feel uncomfortable in a shirt; various parts of body feel uncomfortable and i need to scratch several times, usually both sides of body, l cant stop sniffling and thinking about it, same with clearing my throat, and lastly this is really hard to explain but i cant stop like tensing  like i cant stop putting pressure if you know what i mean? this and the blinking and breathing are the worst, they are there every second of every day its a fucking nightmare. It's gotten progressively worse the last few mouths. Sometimes I double my Zoloft and or mix it with Phenibut. It helps sometimes for a short while then it comes back, it always does. Lately it's been my neck it's like I have to move it and I can't move it enough, like I'm almost snapping it before I can relax. I always suffered from Social Anxiety and that too is getting worse. I think about suicide alot but then my mind starts going and I think of what comes after. I don't want attention I just want to feel good again. I once had dreams and plans and now I just want to get relief. What's worse I feel lonely and ugly. What is fucking wrong with me?

Get off the Zoloft and smoke some pot.

Also, stop being ugly. I'm pretty sure depression hits ugly people harder.