well, for a couple of days since he told me that i was really upset and couldnt really talk to him. then i started to feel..nothing..when i looked at him. we went out with some friends and at the end of the night i told him as much. i realised that i didn't need him to make me happy. he said he doesnt want to waste my time and i said yeah i dont wanna waste my time either.

then we talked it over all night. he told me he's scared that he's gonna mess things up and i won't want him any more. when i asked why he held my face and said

because you really are beautiful

and i really like you

and i really do love you. then he kissed me. so now, we've established that he does have feelings and they are in there somewhere, he just isn't very open. but he opened up so much that night, we talked about everything. i think things are gonna be fine <3 i didn't play games, i have this problem where im ridiculously honest, and so's he so it could potentially cause problems but i prefer honesty to pretences :)

and i am iron deficient, but i didnt know it could bruise me? o.0