Hey everyone. If there is a thread like this already, forgive my ignorance.
I just thought I need to vent a little bit about how this year has been, and I was wanting to see how others have been doing as well!
So far I have been fortunate enough that neither myself or anyone that I know personally has gotten the virus (knock on wood). My area hasn't been hit hard yet either... Though I have seen a couple of smaller businesses have to close down completely. To be honest, I'm really worried for how lockdowns are going to affect the smaller businesses and smaller communities in the long run.
I have been very blessed to be in the position I am right now financially. I have been on disability for a few years due to anxiety and depression, so staying home has not been difficult in that sense. My wife is a substitute teacher on maternity leave. I am actually very thankful that we had our second daughter during the pandemic, so she could take the leave while we anxiously wait for the vaccine.
The only people who have met our nearly 5 month old baby girl are my parents (besides my wife, me, and our first born). We have been taking things very seriously by keeping our bubble small. I honestly feel like my wife, my parents and I are taking this pandemic more seriously than anyone else I know... Every week when it is grocery time, it is such a stress making sure the kids are in another room while we give everything a wipe down. We only go out for groceries, and always have our masks.
It is starting to take its toll mentally though... My baby girl has yet to meet her 4 Godparents, her other grandparents, many aunts and uncles and friends... I feel horrible/guilty that everybody close to us has been missing out on this very precious stage of our girl's life. There is definitely a strain on many of my relationships (they are all understanding, but it has strained things for sure). Hearing the news that even after the vaccine things will not be the same... For a moment I had glimpsed the light at the end of the tunnel. But now I am not so sure....
Maybe I am taking things too seriously... I don't know what to think anymore. I don't trust the media. It is all hysteria. I don't trust anyone saying the virus is not real or is very overblown... I just don't know who to trust.... Obviously having health related anxiety already, this has only made things worse. I feel worse for my girls though. My oldest hasn't gotten to see anyone her age since this all began.
Sorry for the long ramble. Thank you for listening... I just needed to vent somewhere. How have you all been coping? I know there are many suffering from this way worse than me. I am very thankful for the position my family and I are in given the circumstances... I just am going a little crazy. My heart is with all of you who have suffered during this pandemic.