It's clear that me turning my avatar for the new year from Death to Life really fucked 2020. Can't become optimistic in this universe because when you do it does everything in it's power to turn you back to pessimism or make things harder for you. No point in trying, I had so many plans set out this summer for self improvement and to make life a little better and secure in the long run that have to be put on hold for, it's looking like, two years.
Everyone is in the same boat or worse, I know but i just find it all greatly ironic and kind of humorous in a bleak sort of way.
I'm joking about the pessimism, We'll get through this awful year and come out the other end with our priorities and outlook on life greatly changed. Don't know why I'm posting this here besides for my own head and now I'm off to listen to that Alanis Morisette song :D.