In all seriousness, I suppose I may seem silly a lot of the time, but it's usually a front for pain. My life is pain. That's it. It's been mostly poverty, rape, violence, poverty, drugs, the suicide attempt, depression, anxiety, alienation from family, friends dying, my mom dying, loneliness and awkwardness in general, ugliness, my love-hate relationship to my community writ large, certain physical struggles I don't like detailing, poverty...nothing but fun. I want there to be a meaning to life so I have a reason to go on living. I look for some kind of meaning in most everything, accordingly.

Okay, the pity party is over now. You asked though. Also, I like roller skating. As a grown adult.

i went to the darkside for 8 months in 2013/ 2014 and buyed a ps 3 to play Cod BO II and Ghosts on it with some friends. ;)

I... Owned a console other than something Nintendo made... ONCE. I used to have an Xbox 360... But I promise it was the only time!

I hunt...

I'm a Pediatric cardiologist

I honestly can't remember how people were reacting, or even how many saw me. There are definitely details that have faded into the ether. :) I do remember there were people going in and out of the mall bathroom as I awkwardly cleaned up.

I made a card matching game in unity that is filled with ads that makes me literally $0 :D

You are a valuable person.  Your life has worth.  

I hope things improve for you.

im working as a volunteer at a zoo

Huuuuugs! Sorry if that seems trite, but sometimes ( and more now than ever tbh ) I don't know what to say when wanting to comment on a situation like this. You're a great member here, and we're all better for your presence. And at the risk of laying it on too thick, as I've eluded to in the past, you have a good head on your shoulders. Your intelligence comes through in your posts to sure. :)