I've been to the psychological place you're at before and will probably be there again some day. I don't have solutions, but just wanted to put that out there because I have found it helpful sometimes just to know that someone else out there can on some level relate and empathizes. I hope you come back, but above all are able to recover!

Remember that if there is one day when you don't feel as described in the OP, that is progress! Even if you seem to lose ground again the next day, the fact that you were able to have the one better day means that there is hope. Sometimes we have to count progress in baby steps.

Play Mario kart. It always cheers me up. :)

Just find an ok job. Not your dream job but something to get by. The feeling of progress can be very helpful even if its baby steps. Once you have some money in your bank account and maybe get a promotion or raise here and there things will start looking up.

You're 23 and you are worried about the direction of your life?

You're a young man, go start a life. I imagine most people struggle with depression and uncertainty in their 20s. We struggle with plenty of shit during our 20s, you just keep moving forward or wallow in the shit. That's pretty much your options.

Talk to people if that will help, but you also gotta work at finding stuff that makes you happy. If waiting around for a couple video games is all your interested in, I suggest seek out more and create some goals.

Personally I embraced working, getting fit and intellectual pursuits. Its a good way to get your mind off bullshit.

My advice is get into online gaming. Gives you something to do everyday and keeps you social with like minded people.

I don't really know how to respond to situations like this, but reading all of that, it sounds really tough. :(

I really hope you can get through this and find more peace and happiness some day. The only thing I can think to say is to really just try to focus on the things that make you happy in life. You said you're waiting for Final Fantasy 7 Remake and Kingdom Hearts 3, so you obviously enjoy gaming. Are there any other things you enjoy? Either way if you ever wanna talk to anyone there's always users willing to talk to you on this site, some already mentioned in this thread. PM me if you ever feel like it.

Hey! I am completely new to this so am just getting used to the forums and stuff. But yeah, I kind of understand how you are feeling...I myself have had years and years of bad luck, heartache and depression. I am only 22, but I have been agoraphobic for about 6 years now and I find every day a battle. I thought that life in general; being bullied for years, losing many family members, losing friends etc were the worst of it. That is until 2 years ago my dad suddenly died just 6 days after my grandad passed away. I mean losing my grandad was sad, but my dad was my hero. I looked up to him every day and we were really close and to have him just suddenly gone within hours is the worst feeling and nothing will ever compare to that. But i guess what I'm trying to say is...the worst thing that could happen happened 2 years ago and I'm still here now. I guess certain people keep you fighting and give you somewhat a reason to carry on. Even though it seems hopeless...hold on to that. Hold on to even the smallest thing that will keep you going(even if it is a game-who cares), because I can tell you now that it will get better. I thought that I would never feel okay ever again once my dad died, but now I can say that I feel okay. And I know how bad depression can make you feel-not wanting to wake up or get up, feeling completely lost in your thought and like life is a distant memory..And you know what...talking to people doesn't always help. Whether it's gaming, travelling, music etc..there is or will be something that will make you glad that you stuck around. I don't know you, but I do know what a struggle life can be, and I want you to know that you're not alone...I feel your pain just as others do. But just keep going. And as I said, one day you will look back to these memories and feelings and be proud of yourself for getting through it. It's not an easy ride, but it's worth the fight. Stay strong x

As horrible as this sounds and raw, it is the truth. There is no easy way around this, there will be periods in your 20's when you will struggle and the only way to completely get over it is by simply waiting and quite honestly suffering, while also trying to push forward.

Between 19-24 I had so many issues that completely changed the way I used to be that at one point on I could not recognize myself anymore. Five years later I now realize that this was a phase that needed to happen and today I can cope with negative situations in a far superior way.

Time helps, and one day you will wake up and realize that you are past the hard part and you will once again enjoy life

Do you know why you're depressed? Is it a culmination of things? It's very important to recognize the underlying cause. It's ok to be afraid. It's ok to forget who you are at times. You've accepted the fact that you're depressed. That, in and of itself is a major step forward that most people who suffer from depression aren't aware of. Let those around you know how you feel at all times. You may believe by doing so you appear weak but in all actuality, revealing your true emotions is an act of bravery.

I understand what you are going through. I have been going through depression as well for the past few years and it is awful. I know sometimes you desperately want to feel relief from the emotional pain (the loneliness, the empty feeling in your gut) and the physical toll it takes, but always remember that you need to be alive to be able to feel relief. Also, remember that there are people that care about you and are rooting for you to win this battle.

BTW, from what you are describing your depression may be clinical in nature, so you might have to seek help from a Psychiatrist. I notice that your profile states that you live in the UK. Note that mental health services are covered by your countries NHS, all you need is a referral from your GP.

Here are some links that may be useful for you.
https://www.nhs.uk/using-the-nhs/nhs-services/mental-health-services/how-to-access-mental-health-services/
https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/psychiatry/
https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/suicide/

Please take care of yourself and always know that there are people that care for you and want to help you. You can get over this stage and live a wonderful life. Also, feel free to PM me if you just want to talk.