I got the title from a Korn song. I'm content with being alone,as that's when I feel the most comfortable. I'm 34 and I've never had a girlfriend and don't want one. In the past In the past I was interested in trying to get woman of course. I even had the one that got away scenerio,but in the end  nothing ever worked out. So,bye my mid 2 late 20's,I just went the hooker route. just banged alot of prostitues;because it was easier then finding a girlfreind for me and I did'nt even want to bother with it. doing that is illeagal of course,but I've never got caught,despite taking that risk time and time again. I was doing this up until a few years ago. As that in it's self got old. The temptation is always there,but I just got even lazier and just resorted to porn every once in awhile and my right hand. I'm content with just living in my own little bubble. Not every one in this world in meant to find someone. I've never been comfortable around people. I work at the frozen section at a walmart neighborhood market and i've had to put on a show for 13 years. Even when I do something with my sister and her kids,it's all for show. Usually I do just enough to get bye in life. My ultimate point is,am I crazy in my way of thinking? Am I crazy in the fact that people annoy me? I'm bi-poplar,does that in it's self make me a nutjob?    PS:mods can delete this thread if they want. I just wanted to share what I'm really like for some reason????    ????????

yeah.. first.. give us your adress... just in case..

Wow dark thoughts, since you know your bipolar your going to have to find a way to stop the depressing feelings. I understand you tried but why don´t you try one thing that falls outside of that little bubble and focuss how good it feels to be out of it, that way you can build on that one thing and come out of alot of social anxieties.

Main point. Dont worry so much and if your too much of a thinker make yourself do something, like it, become better at it and hopefully passionate.

Do whatever makes you happy. What works for others may not be suited for you, so don't beat yourself up about it.

Different relationships have trade-offs, there's no perfect situation. So focus on the positives of the single lifestyle and try to get the most out of them. Get involved in a hobby, learn a skill, travel, do something useful with your extra time or simply relax and enjoy your freedom.

Anyway.. i know we had this conversation before.. but you shouldn't be worried about how people see you.. be happy first on the inside.. go traveling.. do stuff you like.. and don't worry about women.. You're comfortable enough here on this silly site.. sure we are protected with our avatars and username.. but you seem to be a nice user.. are you that different in real life? then be more oldschoolfool in real life. cause thats a part of you we like..

And to be honest.. dating when you are older is much, much, much easier then when you are young.. they have their own life, know what they want, they have bagage, they have experience.. you don't have to reinvent yourself for them.. they'll accept you for who you are if you go out there..

I'm just gonna stay here till I know you are ok.. in the mean time i'll find some stories to tell

Based on what I read, sounds like you gotta join online dating and find someone a bit your speed. Basically a woman who has similar issues as you so basically she is more attainable (possibly less attractive) but more importantly, you can both work on eachother and both benefit from it.

Remember joelcool7?? http://gamrconnect.vgchartz.com/profile/2707/joelcool7/
he didn't have an easy life.. with his autism, dad problems, little money, love life.. but he changed.. he changed good.. I remember one time being really harsh with him.. spending 1000 dollars on black friday. While he wanted to have the stuff "for him" I was really bitching about how he could have spend the money to improve his general life. (yes I was kinda an A-hole)

I think he realized that he was the one who had to change his mentality if he wanted to improve on his life.. And he did.. got accepted to a film study he loved and slowly improved his life and himself.. he changed
http://www.enjoygram.com/joelcool7
https://twitter.com/Joelcool7
he seems to have it great now..

the thing is what I want to say; is that you gave up, but we won't be the ones getting you up.. it has to come from you.. we can talk/advice/make jokes about the stuff we went through.. but still.. you are the one who has to change it.. we can't suddenly change your behavior.. but we are here to support you if you want to make those changes to enjoy life more..

Neh.. more females means more experience to deal with problems.. my gf isn't my first gf.. I wouldn't even say she was number 8.. (its a long list)
Every time I got burned/rejected i learned something.. sure dating isn't easy, especially the first few times.. but even the most happily couples have their problems.. its not always sunshine.. Oldschoolfool shouldn't be discouraged if he gets rejected. He should look at himself and think: "Well that went wrong what happend?" If he doesn't know he should ask us.. (99% it wasn't you but the girl.. it because.. they are women..)

It doesn't mean he should stop be open to it..  Maybe he meets someone at the frozen section at Walmart.. it's not uncommon to meet some there (the story about this girl constantly flirting with me at the supermarket who turned out to be the daughter of a co-worker is for another time, place and thread) but he shouldn't close himself before anything happend.. he should stay open to love..

Kind of reminds me of Secret Life of Walter Mitty except the pornography and other stuff. If you are okay with your current situation, i guess that it is alright to continue doing what you are doing. If you are not, as it seems somewhat from your posts. You'll have to make changes in your life to get different results. I remember you wanting to quit video games after GTA 5 as you felt that you waste too much of your free time on them and don't make productive changes in your life. Yet, you just carried on with it. Am not poking fun at you for that as making changes can be quite hard and we've all been there. All i want to say is that if you envision a different outlook of life for yourself, you'll have to start doing and looking at things differently. 

I hope it works out for you either way.