Starting from the beginning, when I was younger probably 10 to 16 I had bad dreams, they were really bad, but I dealt with them as I sort of rached a point where I could distinguish what was a dream and what wasnt, and even trained myself (for lack of a better term) to wake up when I have a dream I didnt like.
For the first time in over 10 years I felt trapped in a place I couldnt escape. It turned out to be a bad dream, and this dream turned from one into four).
Looking back now its even hard to remember what the dream was about, or the four dreams (maybe more). But at the time, I can remember the feeling, a feeling like I was trapped and couldnt escape. As a mid 30's guy, I woke up at 2am and was in a sudden panic, not even sure if I was dreaming or awake and afraid to re-close my eyes.
At that moment when I did wake up everything seemed so vivid and real, but looking back now I can only remember mere fragments. But the thing is when I was alot younger I had bad dreams alot, almost every night. But somehow or other I learnt to somehow know they were dreams and nothing more and could even wake myself up if I wanted to (which I did many times). A constant theme I had in those days was a feeling like I couldnt escape, almost like trying to walk in quick sand.
But this time I couldnt awake on demand, or atleast I tried but felt trapped which only added to the terror of the moment, in the dream at the time I couldnt even tell it from reality. I didnt wake up screaming or anything like that, but I was terrified. After 4 consecutive nightmares (in each one I actually thought I had woken myself up only to later realize I was still trapped in the dream/nightmare and couldnt escape, i even remember specifically in the one dream that I knew it was a dream and was trying to wake up but couldnt) when I did wake up for a good 20 minutes I was afraid to re-close my eyes and go to sleep as I was so unsure if I was really awake or still dreaming. It might sound silly to you, but imagine the most terrorfying scenario to you you can and for as much as your mind can tell at that time it is real and you cant escape it.
So I geuess to sum up my question is, have you ever experienced a nightmare like that? a moment when after experiencing a terror you couldnt distinguish at that moment if it was real or not? It was so surreal that you almost wanted to scratch your own face off to make sure it wasnt real as you were so stuck in a moment of pure terror?
EDIT: re-typed the last paragraph so it makes more sense
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