In case it wasn't immediately obvious, programming is my job, there are thousands of programmers who would jump at the chance to join a major studio, getting my panties in a raise about a project we are working on us a sure fire way of ensuring one of those thousand ends up replacing me.
I agree with your general attitude about building games but you need to face reality, I have extremely little sway in the creative aspect of what we make, I'm given a list of required things and I code it, I turn on my workstation in the morning and work on open projects and work through the critical list of the bug tracker.
This isn't some fantasy job where you turn up for work, high five your boss then step on the toes of your fellow employees by attempting to do their work for them, if you can't understand that then I am truly wasting my breath, this is the last response from me you are getting regarding it.