I was quite depressed for the past weeks.  Mainly because I felt alone without a girlfriend.  I have a lot of friends though, male and female.  I just needed someone to love, hug, hang with, do stuff together.

I just began to smoke weed and all those problems seemed to fade away.  Now I can focus on having fun and do my stuff.  I don't worry about the girlfriend issue anymore.  And when I'm having fun, I'm not depressed which means I'm more open to meet new girls ;)

I guess this is medicinal use :D

Yup, not the best way out of it. VGC is a bad enough drug.

I know it's not the best way, but it's a very mild "drug" (if we can call it like that).  Always better than alcohol IMO.  If you have already tried it, I'm sure you understand.

No, I'm 13. I would also never do a "drug." (Not sure what you want to call it.)

I hate the feeling my life is so much shit compared as how I wanted it to be, Im getting old and nothings changed while everyone else moving on.

I hate what I study, but I wouldnt do anything else, its just not an option to quit.

I hate that everytime I fall in love it turns out the same way, the way I get hopes over and over again and when I get close to having it, I loose it.

I hate that I dont seem to have the same optimistic feelings I used to have, I hate that Im alone and Ive got noone to care even if many people are willing to say that they do.

I hate that I built ilussions of how fantastic existance could be and now Im realizing Im just an animal with no right or no reason to be happy.

I hate my life.

Oh, and I hate the fact that it seems that Im falling for a friend that helped me in such shitty moments and I know she would never come with me, I hope that feeling goes away since Im tired of liking people that dont like me

Law, and Im tired of it, I like some things but I cant get over the ones I hate.

Hope it gets better, I feel anxiety lots of times, today im better but it always comes back, specially now that im realizing I get jealous when my friend doesnt pay the attention that I want to me or is with other guys.

The only good thing is these feelings make me more creative and I make more songs even if everyone of them is depressive lol

Not applying myself makes me depressed. Today I bombed my statistics final because quite frankly I fuck off instead of studying for my classes. Dating a girl that is in graduate school and only a year and a half older then me and I'm just barely getting my associates degree depresses me. Not having the motivation to study when I know damn well I should is also a bummer. Seems most of my anxiety/depression revolves around my school. Then again I also am tired of working the same position in my job for the last couple of years.

Why try so hard?
In the end, nothing ever really matters; At most we'll be but a memory

 hey I remember you now. You sing the friend zone master zone, awesome song btw! it seems like we are a little bit similar in some things, I have a terrible luck when it comes to girls, there is this new girl I met a few weeks ago, we went out a couple of times last week and I really thought we were going somewhere, I know I was going a little bit too fast, but I cannt help myself when it comes to girls... Yesterday I realized who far from the reality I was, so I decided to give up on her. I just dont feel like getting involved with anyone else now, but thats the same thing I repeat every now and then...