I went home Saturday afternoon. Some random shit happened including another phone call from my ex that pretty much prevented any kind of making up. I went to bed on one side of the house and my wife slept on the other. Sunday morning I woke up and was about to pack up and leave again...but I didn't. Instead I worked in the yard all day. She made dinner. We ate but there wasn't much conversation. I went to bed with her but got up after an hour and slept on the couch.
What I didn't mention in the op was how defensive I get when I'm criticized for something--even when it's totally my fault. I lashed out. Basically said that when I met her she was nothing and she doesn't contribute anything of worth. Totally not true but I'm an asshole. I made her cry and I made me cry for making her cry. But we're talking now (even though I'm at work) and I've mustered the strength to tell her : I'm sorry.
Also told me ex to STOP CALLING ME. It does nothing but cause problems.
