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Cobretti2 on 06 December 2018
At the end of the day. we here are trying to help you. However seeing all your responses after each comment it shows that there is bigger concern beyond what we can say with words. I even went out of my way to dig up the past on things that I sometimes would rather forget. I don't normally do that but when I see what you are going through I had to give examples.
Honestly you should seek some professional help. Hell discuss this thread with them and some of the points raised. I think an in person interaction will help you get other some of these negative thoughts you have about yourself. They may even help you during the session on how to deal with these issues and provide you tools to deal with hem outside the sessions.
